Dyrgja

Dear Mum and Dad, First of all you need to know that this is not your fault, It's mine, for I locked my problem inside me like a vault, Problems that I was never able to tell you, Problems that I'm sick of dealing with. I'm through. I'm sick of pretending that everything's alright, I'm sick of having all these emotional demons to fight. I can't take my depressing life anymore, I realize I felt this way too often before. I now know I'm not needed in this place, Just another stupid teen, just another ugly face. I can tell I'm secretly hated by everyone I know, Though, when I'm around, they don't let their hatred show. My life has n

There once was a girl who hated the world because of the pain within.  On the outside she appeared just fine.  But her sanity was wearing thin.  Pain and hate and guilt were hidden deep inside her mind.  But it grew and increasingly she broke down from time to time.  No one knew of her burdens since she hid them very well.  No one would've ever guessed that soon she'd say her last farewell.  Her family expected too much from her and spoke in an indifferent and hypocritical way.  She felt worthless and useless and stupid and ashamed.  It was the same cycle every day.  Her friends provided little comfort for they were all rather opinionated.  T

You called me up, crying, down the phone, you said you'd taken some pills, and didn't want, to die alone. Is your life, that messed up, you had to take steps, to make it stop? I cried to you, to call 999, you said you couldn't listen, to voices other than mine. your voice sounded weak, fighting for breath, the silence was noticeable as if i was deaf. The streets of heaven, are already full tonight, full of souls, souls of angels, souls like yours, souls of people, whose life ended too soon. Your death, has brought nothing but pain, upon this world.

Im sorry I didnt want to leave you all But i cant handle this anymore My life sucks I cant handle it Its taking me over The thoughts in my head They kill me inside But i dont want to confine it anymore I want to release these thoughts And let them be real Dont forget its all your fault Never forget that I hate you all There is one And they know who they are I love them Its not their fault But i have to do this Things in my life have been building up lately Abd i just hate myself too much to let myself live So this is my note To say goodbye to eveyone who thought i loved/liked them so goodbye good luck in life i will

Slash my wrists Slit my throat Feeling the drain of blood Feeling empty Days long past passing before my eyes Have no feeling now I see nothing but black No fire, no bright light No nothing Just Nothing Nothing exists after death Noting not you, and not me Nothing Than I awake With the blade still in my hand Untouched by my blood I put it down and walked into the black abyss Called life.

Have you ever wanted to die? So bad That you stood in the bathroom A knife or a razor blade in hand Maybe a boodle of pills And a glass of water And you stared at the mirror Just wishing you'd die But then you started to think About your mom and your dad Your sisters and brothers Your nephews and nieces All of your friends And you put down the knife or the razor blade You put away the pills And you walked away Acting like nothing ever happened But the thoughts of your family and friends Never stay for long Day's week's maybe months later Your back to thinking about suicide and death